Thursday, January 22, 2009

I'm Back

Who knows why I end up having these long hiatuses. They're never particularly intentional. I end up getting busy and the next thing I know it's been two months since I've posted a blog. Truthfully though, the last time I stopped blogging I HAD gotten busy and ended up neglecting a promise. I kind of ended up hiding. Now, a year later (has it been a year? no, it's only been nine months) I'm back. And, person I made the promise to, if you're still out there and you stumble on this, contact me. I'll pay you for what you ended up having someone else do. I'm sorry I reneged on a deal.

So, where are we? In the past nine months we moved to the south side of town so that we could save gas and be closer to our jobs, then, later in the year I ended up quitting my job so that I could better service a client up on the north side of town where we USED to live that I've been working for over the last few years. Now, that job is ending and we're getting ready to move. Only this time, instead of moving back across town, we're making a BIG move... to Texas.

It's a big change. At the moment, I don't have much work lined up. We've got money in the bank. We've paid off our debt. And, if it works out, I'm going to be working really hard to build my business. I had said that at one point I never wanted to be in a situation where I was doing the 'freelancing' thing. Never say that you'll never do something.

Tomorrow will mark 8 days until the move. It hasn't completely hit that I won't be looking out at Pikes Peak at least once a day. It hasn't completely hit that I won't have access to the few friends that we have here.

I have been doing some introspection though over the past few days. I saw some photos the other day that really upset me and, at least at first, I couldn't pinpoint why. They were completely innocuous photos; people that we sort of know having fun. So why the anger? At first I really didn't know. But then, as I was thinking about it, I started to ponder why we had kind of been actively rejected by this group of people. There wasn't a great reason. They had just already paired off and we didn't measure up. A couple that arrived a little later on WAS accepted while we were still around and it was really hard to watch that happen. It wasn't the first time it happened while we were here. There were other instances where for various reasons we just didn't fit into the sociological norms of that set of people and we were rejected. That, to a degree, happens everywhere. I think that it might happen more when you move to a new area. When you're where you grew up there isn't enough opportunity for that to happen. But, when you move to a new area and you don't have a 'sponsor' that will bring you into a community it's kind of a crap shoot whether you'll be accepted. I think we rolled 'snake eyes' a few too many times while we were here.

So why will that be any different in Austin? I don't know for a fact that it will but I do know that we do have 'sponsors' in Austin that can bring us into a community. I guess we'll see what happens. We lived here pretty successfully the past five years. It'll be interesting to see what happens when we start over again. I want to write more on this but I've got a few other things that I still need to finish tonight. More later.